I’m not sure where the last week went, but it’s been a rough one. I’m adjusting to having my sleep interrupted every night, but that is more of an excuse than anything else. My eating has been horrible, I haven’t posted anything, and I’ve slacked on my running schedule. I did fit in a three mile run yesterday after the gym, and was rewarded with some bad hip pain as well as a the return of some recurring pain in my back. My eating has gotten to the point where I ate lunch today and even though I’m hungry, I cannot fathom eating tonight. But, in spite of all of that, all I can do is move forward.
I’ve determined that my various pains are necessitating a full rest from activity for a few days, so I’m taking the opportunity to fast and reset my body inside and out. As I said, I ate lunch today, but I’m not going to eat again until dinner tomorrow. I’ve fasted for 24 hours in the past, but I felt like I needed a longer, fuller reset.
For the past week, with family in town, I have been eating almost nonstop with very little limit on what I have been eating. I can feel and see the weight that I’ve gained and I don’t think I’ve actually been hungry in days. For a week I’ve been eating because I was bored or just wanted to instead of because I was hungry or needed sustenance. It actually even got to the point where I didn’t want to be eating, nor was I enjoying it, but I couldn’t stop. That is why today, with a few days off from working out ahead of me, I am putting an end to that destructive pattern. I’m going to remind myself what it’s like to be hungry and the real reason why we eat, and I’m going to interrupt the constant stream of food of the last week. Then, I will regroup, and start up again tomorrow evening with a renewed commitment to taking care of myself and my body.
Some might say that it isn’t the most healthy approach to fast completely, but one day isn’t going to hurt me. The point isn’t to lose weight by not eating but to reset how I’m eating and flush my system of the crap that I’ve been ingesting recently. I’m also timing it around my break from working out so that I’m not hurting myself by trying to work out without any food in me.
From the times that I’ve done it in the past, I’ve found fasting to be a great reminder of how lucky we are in this country to have food immediately accessible at all times. It also really brings into focus what being hungry really feels like, something that we don’t experience often because of that accessibility of food. If you haven’t done it before, I urge you to try it. Although I initially tried it for religious reasons, I think it’s an experience that everyone should have and something that I’m trying to do periodically as my workout schedule will allow. It’s hard to describe, but if you’re like me, it really brings on a meditative attitude that helps me to recenter myself both physically and mentally. Oh, and when you do get to eat, it’s so, so good. This, again, goes to show the effects of having food around all the time. We don’t even get to fully enjoy the huge amounts of food available to us because we just take it for granted and never really experience a hunger that makes food taste so incredible.
So, anyway, that’s where I’m at today. Hungry, but happy to be breaking the horrible cycle I’ve been stuck in all day. Even though it’s only been half a day, I’m already feeling very reflective and I’m actually genuinely looking forward to tomorrow. I’ll check back in once I’ve completed my fast to document how it went!